we're having a heat wave

Not really...although I think today got into the 30s which in comparison is a nice and balmy mild day :)

We've been suffering through single digits here in Colorado and it has been a little miserable. Especially if you're a teacher and you've had three inside recess days in a row. Every teacher knows that inside days create the perfect alignment of wiggly bodies and loud voices that will pierce your ear drums instantly and make you so tired you could literally take a nap amongst the grimy pillows in the classroom library. 

I hurried to pick up Everdeen after school today and when we got home we snuggled under blankets and I turned up the heat, not caring that it would be reflected on our heating bill next month. These moments we have together after school are everything to me.  

It's been hard. It's been so hard to be back at work.

Especially after coming back from winter vacation.  Everyone tells me that it will get easier...but it hasn't.  I have a hard time justifying to myself that I spend eight hours a day with other people's children when I have my own baby to take care of. During the day I know she is having the most wonderful time with her Nana and cousin, or with her Grandma, or with her daddy on his days off.  I just wish it was with me too...

Only 17 more weeks left until beautiful summer vacation. I can feel the warm sun on my face now.  It will probably be too hot and I'll be wishing for those short winter days when we snuggled in bed together...under the covers with our hats on, in our pajamas, watching the snow fall out the window.