I Love You To The Moon and Back

times infinity...

To My One and Only,

Thank you for trying to recreate our traditional Valentine's dinner the gluten free way...even if I cried. You are the most patient man I have ever met and my pregnant overly emotional self thanks you endlessly for your constant support, laughter, and back rubs. You are going to make the world's best dad. I can't wait to see you hold our little baby in your arms and know that it has some of you and some of me mixed together (hopefully a little more of you than me...)  I love you more than anything and want you to know that I truly am the luckiest girl in the world. 

Love,

me

Music Gives Wings to the Mind

The little one and I spent a quiet Sunday afternoon listening to music and I got caught up on some much wanted reading of the Hunger Games.  I used to think being alone all weekend while Martin worked was boring, but now I love that I get to share new things with our baby, even if it is still growing inside of me.   

Hope everyone had a wonderful weekend!

A Polka Dotty Week

There's just something about polka dots...don't you think?

Dressing has become a little easier now that I've accepted the fact that I've gained the weight of a small dog. My mom and I scoured a baby and maternity consignment store and found some really great pieces that will last me through my pregnancy...all 50% off, which makes them that much more wonderful.  And seeing my older sister just went through her pregnancy, I got to go through her selection of maternity clothes as well. 

It's nice to share.

Dressing for my new belly sure gets the creative juices flowing in the wee morning hours.  I'm still enjoying wearing most of my pre pregnancy tops and pants thanks to my Bellaband and the fact that apparently I used to buy clothes that eerily resembled maternity fashion. 

I held up some of my new wardrobe for my husband to admire and said, "Hey, some of these things I could definitely keep wearing after the baby comes!"  Martin looked instantly alarmed.

"Well, maybe not the elastic waisted pants..." I added quickly.

Today was a good day and I was smiling all afternoon. I got to hear our little one's heartbeat and experienced what it was like to have a stranger, in the middle of a store, get excited about your pregnancy. I'm beginning to really love my new belly, especially in polka dots.

Forever My Babies You'll Be

Martin and I keep explaining to Wilson and Margot that pretty soon there will be a new baby in the house. Martin tells them that it will be loud and smelly, which leaves both the cats with a sense of fear in their eyes. I reassure them that the baby will only be loud and smelly sometimes. 

But most importantly, as silly as it sounds, we reassure the cats that we have enough love for everyone, and they will secretly always be our babies. 

Snowed In

Yesterday, we watched as seventeen inches of sparkly snow fell to the ground.  Although pretty, I wasn't able to go to my four month baby check up and for that I'm extremely mad at this mini blizzard that decided to grace Colorado with its presence.  But, I can't stay mad too long because the sun is already shining again and I'm pretty sure I've been feeling our little baby move inside of me.  

The little butterfly movements are truly an amazing feeling. And until my husband will be able to feel our baby move from the outside, it's just me and the little one for now...connecting and bonding over such a small thing as a tiny kick. In a few weeks we'll get to find out if we're having a little girl or boy. I love sitting with my eyes closed and day dreaming about what it will be like to have a little Martin or a little Jessica running around. Either way we'll be happy. I just focus on those small movements that remind me that there is a tiny being inside of me, a tiny being that is ours, that we are responsible for growing and teaching and loving.

Since we weren't going anywhere yesterday, I begged Martin to help me rearrange the bedroom furniture. I feel like I've been nesting like crazy and need EVERY space in this little apartment to be clean and organized.  Our 13 foot by 13 foot bedroom is going to serve as our bedroom, office, and soon to be nursery.  Yikes. 

We'll make it work. We decided to stay in our one bedroom apartment for another year...besides, babies are small, right? :) We knew that now wasn't the time to move to the place we eventually want to call home. So now, we wait for the right time and make the home we have a home for three instead of two. 

To be honest though, sometimes I feel sad that I can't decorate a nursery for my baby. The necessities are all we have room for and I guess that's probably a good thing. Martin keeps reminding me that people thousands of years ago didn't have fancy nurseries for their babies and everyone turned out just fine.  "What would they have done in a teepee Jessica? Everyone lived in the same room." He has a valid point, but still...

Our room is a work in progress for now, but I can see the potential.